Tag Archives: Connections

Reading the waves on the ECG of life- someday soon, it’ll talk!

18 Aug

I’m in a happy place, today. 🙂 🙂 Amidst bubble-breathing cartoons painted on dreary walls, I’ve found friends I wouldn’t have believed I’d find. Do I still believe that I have? I’m not sure. It’s like I asked them yesterday, “Are you for real?” As crazy as this might sound, they’ve brought my heart immense happiness and I’m content with just that for today. “Take it one step at a time”– this line has come to me from several friends and family on very many occasions- it must be God shaking sense into my head; I want to be obedient when it comes to Him, so that’s exactly what I’m going to be doing.

I could still ask some of the crazy questions I’ve been asking all week now, aka “What might God want me to do with my life?”, “What’s with the hormones? Holy Lord! WHY?”, my usual personal favorite, “Whatever were you thinking, God?”, “Why are some people, a good section of boys I’ve met definitely included, so terribly rude? Seriously, what’s with that?” or “Surely people in the world could be nicer than that, couldn’t they?” But I’m not asking any of those things- not right now, because I’m at peace. 😉 [I can bet God is feeling relieved!] My answers are coming to me- some of which, I already know. The human race is weird- it really is; I’m glad I have my connections with the divine.

Every time that I attempt thinking back, I don’t understand how I’ve let uncool events progress as much as they did. It’s time to loosen up more. It’s time to take things I’ve been allowing to weigh me down, lightly- really lightly. I’m 25; I want to be funner, freer and a LOT happier, to relish every moment of every day that life gives me, to trust more, to be okay with every limb of the asterix, to know truly that the route I’m being taken along is the path to my true purpose, to be proud of each milestone I cross and above all, to learn to love and forgive myself plentifully more than I already do.

If I were left to do things my way, I’d be hopping from one major thing on that list to the next like a grasshopper on a winning spree- all in a few hours, like I have done mentally several times 😀 but I’m a child of God, He has plans for me that He might/might not have told me yet, I trust Him and I will certainly shut-up and follow because I choose to be wiser than I have been.

Writing this post has felt good; I can literally feel peaceful harmonies from the universe wafting through my being. I hope everybody else in the world attains their best, today, too; this is me signing off, sending peace and love to everyone!

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Self-pride v/s The ways of the world

25 Jun

So much happens through high-strung connections in the world; be it getting into the perfect college, landing an interview, bagging a job, settling into a cushy career, snapping up exclusive business-deals, obtaining freebies (haha, 🙂 yes that too!) or finding a random associate of a friend’s distant, unheard-of relative who’ll lead you to just the thing you need.

I know there are people who’ll say, “What’s the point of having friends and family who won’t be there for you when you actually need the support, the guidance or the gentle push?” I am aware that most of them think of aid as just a smooth landing onto their initial platform; beyond which they’re on their own. That’s true and amounts to a great start, if you’re okay with it.

I’ll confess. I’m guilty of having accepted assistance when I’ve been in desperate conditions, myself. Whether I asked for it or not, help was at hand and was received. I can soften my heart when it comes to me and say, “Oh, it was a very small favor.” No, it wasn’t! No help is too small or too big; it is just right for the moment. Or I could say, “God placed them there for me at the right time.” Maybe. That answer, matter-of-factly, soothes my senses.

Yes, one might return the favor someday or do something else to show their sincere gratitude; I’m not here to debate on what is the better thing to do.

I’m just asking myself, “Would my pride permit me to accept help when I haven’t earned it on my own merit?” They say that, at times, you’ve got to drop your ego aside and just ask. Is it too small a deal- the asking? Really? Why does my heart not think so?

I know why I like doing things on my own, actually. It isn’t an ego issue or worse, if you’re thinking, a superiority complex. If you know me, you won’t even doubt that. I just like being able to face the mirror at the end of my day, to look myself in the eye and say, “Girl, you did it! And I am proud!” 🙂 I wouldn’t trade that feeling for anything in the world.

Would you call that being too principled or too vain? I don’t know.